Not a Caregiver's Bone In My Body

How did this happen? Me, who has never enjoyed taking care of anyone or anything, how did I get here? How did I become a caregiver? How did my husband, the love of my lifetimes, get dementia? We kicked and screamed all the way! How did we get here?

I just want to have fun. I just want to live in my beautiful home with my beautiful husband and drive my beautiful car around the beautiful area we live in. I just want to cook beautiful meals and create beautiful art and play beautiful music. I just want to wear beautiful clothes and take beautiful vacations and hang out with our beautiful family and friends.

I just want to have tea with my husband in any coffee shop we choose. I just want to wander the bookstores with him, whenever we choose. I just want to enjoy his intelligent conversation and his company, his conscious presence. I just want to go out for a meal with him wherever and whenever we want. How did this happen? What were we thinking? How did we get here?